I failed after 4 years of no failure in medical school. I failed
I guess I figured out my medical topic weak point GYN&OBJ. but so what? We all have a weak point and it is completely nothing to be a shame of, the worst is how my school deals with it every time I talk to one of the organizing committees, and asking any question! The answer always is “well you failed” as if it is a very big deal no one ever gone through.
But the reality is this that everyone has a chance to go through this, we are human nothing more than that. We are clever enough to invent the computer, reach Mars, achieve with technology the unachievable, but still, we can't know it all.
I was told one by great professor of mine “ you are not here to learn it all, you are here to know how to do no harm” and he also said “you will not ever learn it all, maybe when you become intern you will maybe feel that your experiences might give you the confidence to say that you know”
The whole aim about I want to be the best doctor I can or cleverest doctor in my field is not actually impossible, but the first step to reach that goal is to understand that you will never know it all, in my first year I was the student that my teacher always thought I will make it somewhere although my marks were not that impressive but they always thought that, to be honest I really never got why although I don’t know everything, but by time I kind reached an answer about that question, I can be a good doctor because I know that whatever I learn now won't be enough tomorrow, because I always keen to ask question and search up what I don’t know.
The problem is not you not knowing the problem is that you get punished for that, getting punished by yourself or others with words that can but all your carer down just because you are being a normal human being. You shouldn’t be doubting yourself or letting anyone put you down just because you didn’t know once or you failed for once, or you got stressed, lost control, the info flow from your head to fall on ground instead of your tongue or fingers, you are just a human you crash you break down, you forget and fall in doubt of not knowing, but you can always stand up again if you just totally understood that you are only a human and that all of this is only lack of knowledge not lake of cleverness or you being stupid, it is only you didn’t study enough not your brain didn’t work enough, your brain is strong, smart, and can do it all if you just believed that you can do it.
